Thoughts on Trust, Travel, and Trying Again

What are you to do when your dreams come crashing down in one of the most traumatic ways possible? When your plans and efforts are brushed off the table like the chocolate-covered crumbs left from your coffee cake? When you are left with nothing but questions, answers that don’t satisfy, and more questions? When you are filled with fear, doubt, disappointment, and despair? What are you to do when you reach into the very bottom of something, when you dive deep into a well, and there is nothing there?

You feel empty, deserted, dreamless, lost.

What do you do when you feel this way?

You trust.

You trust in your resilience.

You trust in your ability to keep going, to dream new dreams.

You trust that this is all part of it. Part of the flow of life.

You trust that there is something bigger at work, something outside yourself.

And you trust that this higher power outside of you is within you, too.

There is an unstoppable force at work in the world, and it is at work within you.

It will not stop until things are good and right, until things are whole.

It will not let you slip through the cracks.

It will not abandon you.

This unstoppable force will pick you up and carry you with it as it moves all of creation into something new and beautiful.

So if this unstoppable force is taking you away from your dreams of living in Ireland this summer, there must be something better it is taking you to. There must be a bigger dream to dream.

So though your travel plans have been ripped out from underneath you, and though you feel as if there is nothing to go home to, do not lose hope.

Do not give up.

Trust that there is something bigger and better at work.

Travel as much as you can to new places, even if it is to new places within the mind when you are stuck living at home.

And try again.

Dream a bigger dream.